Everyone knew what to do automatically like a bunch of robots. It was weird.

so we hid in that cement tunnel thing on the playground and just watched them right?

What else can you do? We hadn’t decided to

join the circus

not just yet.

That first year we developed our

me against the world

philosophy.

Maybe it also had to do with that memory of watching Rambo, which had just come out on VHS. We filled little hollow toys with water to make them grenades.

Young SHAZZBARBARIC

orphaned mancub

I tried to tell my parents about this early feeling of isolation but they just took offense to the thought they abandoned me by putting me in school so early.

they don’t take criticism well

It wasn’t even criticism, at least that wasn’t my intention.

It’s just me trying to explain how I became

who I am

I eventually got with the program the second year, so that would be four.

I slept when I was supposed to, blocked with the block heads at block time, figured out how to check out those tricycles.